Hi Koo, from your faithful blog "lurker" and occasional comment-leaver in San Jose, California. Happy 2009! :) For what it's worth, I just wanted to say that I'm one of the folks who supports you in what you're doing for your own physical, mental and emotional health, as well as that of Gabriel. So, I definitely agree with Deb's comment, and I respectfully disagree with Jessica's comment. Even tho I've never met Chris in person, I feel he would NOT want you and Gabriel sacrificing so much of your lives on his behalf. I think he would want you & Gabriel to go out and MAKE something of your lives. To me, that's one of the best ways to honor the love you both have for Chris. :) And so, I wish you nothing but the best! You are a good person; please don't let people make you feel doubt about that! Shari K.