Koo, I went to HS with Chris also and so I too only know of him then. I feel so priveledged to have been a reader of this blog. You have poured your heart and soul into Chris and his care, and you have bled your emotions onto this blog. I always have been very impressed with how you were able to share, I mean REALLY share on this blog, which many whom you dont even know read on a daily basis. I wish that I can say that I would be the same person you were if I were in your situation, but I don't know if I could. Your life has been so difficult and you have worked sooo hard keeping the peices together. I am sorry that you are truelly hurting so much and I hope that you can find a better place for your mind, heart and soul, so Gabriel can see his mom REALLY happy and without worry. I am so happy for you and Gabriel that you have always made a blatant effort to spend the special time with Gabriel and amongst all of the "noise" in your life you really made it a point to try to sheild Gabriel from it as often as possible. I wish you only the best in your future and I hope you will not feel the pressure of those that disagree. You are really a dedicated, caring person. I support you in any way possible and I am thinking about you and your family always. -Kristine