Hi Koo, So sorry to hear your despair. Surely do understand the difficulty you're describing. Not in the same situation, but I can understand. I know how hard it is taking care of Samantha at home. I, of course, have no answers for you. Only you can figure out how it will all work for all of you, including Chris. I just want to encourage you to continue to seek out answers and pray for guidance. You seem to be a woman who knows how to go after the answers and what you want. Look how far and what you've been able to organize for Chris. And it's working. He's made some progress from when I first started reading about you guys. Anyways, just want to encourage you to search out ways that you can be there for him and Gabriel. Maybe it's having him closer or even at home with full time caregivers....I don't know and would not even try to suggest anything because you have earned my respect in the way you've handled things so far. I just am saddened that he doesn't get to see you or Gabriel that much, especially since he is more aware now and clearly enjoys your company. He is working so hard too. Well, Koo, I will say some extra prayers and hope for all of you. I think you are a remarkable lady.