Gabriel and I stayed at the hospital with Chris from 3:00 to 6:00 PM only. Chris as usual immediately recognized us and it is very evident because he lifts his head up (for me) or down (for Gabriel), stares and his facial expression changes. He also vocalizes when he sees us. We spend most of the day downstairs as Gabriel was very excited about all his “amigos”, lots of family coming with their kids to visit relatives and Gabriel’s best friend Antonio, son of Enzo, an Italian patient who used to be across Chris’ room was there as well. Gabriel and Antonio are the same age, so are Chris and Enzo, their families were all in London for the holidays… and they are so loving towards Chris. Enzo’s father met Chris today for the first time and kissed and hugged Chris, and wept… I guess that’s the Italian way…

Chris was complaining a lot today by vocalizing through moans and groans – just like yesterday. I can not figure out what it is that is bothering Chris but something obviously is bothering Chris as he seems to be in pain. I think it maybe his shoulders, they are very tight, and the other possibility is his right wrist, which is completely curved inwards and his splint is nowhere to be found.

Chris’ nephew Trevor and sister Kim called to wish Chris a Merry Christmas. He was listening attentively as usual but also getting distracted by the kids running around the room, he would turn and look the kids and then stop and listen to the phone, and back and forth like that.

Once Chris was back in bed, he was calmer. I felt bad about leaving Chris as he was looking into my eyes with such a sad expression… Chris’ eyes are so expressive, I feel he wants to say so many things through his eyes, the way he looks and stares… I am not sure what he wants to say… but I felt he did not want to be left alone tonight when I left.

I have decided that I am not spending the usual 6 to 7 hours on weekends at the hospital because I leave feeling so devastated and tired and get immersed in a lot of negativity, probably because it is too tiring and grueling. I think I will be better towards Chris and endure this better in the long-term if I manage to spend shorter quality time with Chris.

Merry Christmas to everyone!